F THIS!!!

I'm dun!

Girl Wud YOU?!?!?

So me and Free have been dealin with his bitter ex since we became an issue. I won't even go thru all tha details bcuz it iz theee longest story. But, she won't get over it and she always comes at me so randomly makin up stories about how she's still wit him and all this otha jazz that I'm suppose 2 believe. Tha girl is jus plain full of it. It's like come on now. Ur there, I'm here...if he was really with you then why wud he be workin so hard at bein with someone who is not even in his area code??? come on now...let's jus be real. At any other point in mah relationship I'da believed every lie she told me and broke up with Free in 2 seconds, but we've been here so many times b4 it's jus so very obvious that she's jus a bitter bi**h {for lack of a better word lol}. I jus want her to get over it. So here's tha new scenario:

I'm layin in bed...jus woke up from takin a nap on like tha only day off I've had in like 3 weeks {excludin Sundays of course...lol} and mah fone rings and I look and it reads number unavailable. So, of course I'm all wondering who it iz and I answer and they hang right up. So wateva...but of course I'm wondering who it is, right ;-). But, then I get a text from mah baby tellin me not 2 answer any private calls cuz its her...he jus saw her and they got n2 it. So, of course 1st question comin 2 mah mind is how this psycho chic got mah number. Well, apparently someone asked to use his phone and wen he wasn't payin attention they ran off and gave it 2 her. So mah next question, which I'm sure ur asking urself at this very moment is , "Who wud do sum'n like that?" Or sumwhere along those lines of course, lol. So, he tells me it was one of her frenz who he felt like she was up 2 sum'n but didn't pay much attention 2 it...he didn't even kno his ex was there until ole girl ran off with his fone.

::picture mah face right nah::

I mean, I wasn't mad at him, its jus like...come on now bae. U obviously felt she was bein sneaky but u still gave her tha fone. Watta dummy move, right? I mean, it cud have all been avoided...but it is wat it is. U did sum'n stupid...I like had no words...but he apologized of course. Lol....but needless 2 say chic has been callin non-stop. She called me SEVENTEEN times--BACK 2 BACK {and still call'n...mah fone jus rang again...lol}. But, it's like...GIRL??? Please get ova it. He duz'n want you anymore. I mean...I can understand why.

One: You're psycho

Two: I look waaaaaay better than you and mah body??? come on now...no comparison

Three: We're IN LOVE!!!! Geeesh...get ova it. plz!

I jus think it's all so very high school. And tha sad part about it is that even wen I was in high school i wud'a neva dun no immature crap like this. She's like frikkin 12...come on now. All I can say is...

Girl....WUD YOU?!?!?

No More Confusion...

So this is where I'm @...umm. I guess having this whole long distance relationship thing, I get a lil lonely. Obviously. I mean I can go out with mah girls but there is nothing like having tha company of someone from tha opposite sex. And I love Free! And tha only person I eva wanna be with is him, but since our situations don't allow us that wen we wud like, I'm left...alone. Now...I still have a lot of bad girl tendencies. As much as I wud like 2 say I've passed that one...yea...not so much. I end up putting mahself in situations around other guys that I know I shud'n be around. Like a 1st love ex...or a guy that states everytime he sees me that he wants to be with me. I kno...silly girl, I am. I'm sorry...I get bored. =( Not excusable, I kno...but it's tha truth. I mean....I didn't go all tha way with 1st love ex...but...well...he did. ;-) BAD GIRL! ::sighs:: Needless 2 say...I WILL NOT be goin around him anymore. Cuz, he's a lot stronger than me...and Lord knows I don't need any more of that. Wellllll...ok. No, I don't. LOL

Then there's...P. Weed {this name is f'n hilarious 2 me, but it fits him so much}. But, he like really wants 2 wife me. Like, I met this dude at a club like over two years ago. And at first he seemed like he wud be different, you kno? So, I thot that wud go somewhere. very obviously, it didn't. Cuz he's a dumb boy...and boys will be--well...boys! But he started acting different. {guess he got a girl...which wasn't a big thing 2 me cuz then I started back with Arkansas {ugh...can't stand this boy...beside tha point tho lol}. But, now I'm like all in love and he'll see mah status updates that I write about mah baby and then all of a sudden you wanna come back around??? Well, at first I wasn't giving him tha time of day. But, then mah sill a** decided I wanted 2 have a best guy fren???? I kno, right? But, I don't kno how I thot this wud work since he's never expressed a desire 4 frenship with me...once! It's always, "F ur man! U need 2 get wit me.." or somwhere along those lines! But, one VERY DRUNK NIGHT..I kissed him @ tha club. I felt terrible, but duh!!! I blamed it on tha alcohol...and nooooo I did not tell Free. U think I'm crazy? lol...but this Friday...I went 2 see him and we jus talked 4 a while and then...well..we kissed again. I never go 2 far...well I guess wat I did with 1st love ex was a lil far {well..wat he did 2 me}! But, honestly...I feel terrible.

I will NEVER tell Free about this...I jus can't. I needed 2 get that out tho. I don't think I even told Wifey...cuz she will kill me. LOL! I guess she'll know now, huh?

Well...very needless 2 say...I'm content now. I chose 2 be in a long distance relationship and thas how it's gonna be until he moves up here for good. Goodness I can't w8...this is harder than I thot...lol ;-) But, I love Free and no one will change that...So. I am no longer confused. I'm good...no more bad girl ways.

PROMISE!!

~Mrs. Amillie~