FITS OF A SLEEPLESS NIGHT...

i wonder how many sleepless nights i've had in my lifetime all because of love. not that im blaming love 4 who i fell 4, jus simply sayin. it seems i've been here more than i should hav. and i wish there was a way 2 avoid this. but, as i kno, and anyone else who's ever suffered from heart break, i kno i must go thru this.

a thousand thots race thru my head and i wonder is this my punishment 4 falling in love. i wonder, is this the benefit. i swear i hear a million times over that he's not worth my tears, it's his loss, it'll get better and so forth. and trust me that i kno all these things already but that doesn't mean my tears will stop fallin and it doesn't mean i'll accept it better because he didn't deserve me {I mean, who does, really??}, and it surely doesn't make the time pass any faster knowin that it will get better. and trust me wen i say im no where near pessimistic. i mean u would think that after all the heart ache i've experienced that i would throw my hands up, say f it and be bitter as eva. but im not...im very optimistic but more so realistic! life does a number on u. changes u. grows u up....changes u. i dunno. i guess this is jus...fits of a sleepless night!!!

I HATE HIM!!!!

He jus ruined mah whole day...wish I couldn't care, but I do and I'm crying typing on mah laptop in the frikkin library. I HATE HIM!!!!

Mah Response 2 OneTen's post :-)

One Ten's recent post piqued mah interest a whole lot. Not 4 any particular reason other than the fact that he was listing some Classic songs {he so wonderfully call's PD's...wanna kno wat it is...go look @ his page}. But, he missed some...and since, a few years back, I made mah own cd'z for this exact purpose...I was compelled 2 add 2 wat he already has! Hope he doesn't mind

::little girly face::

So, here goes.... {in no particular order of course}
*112- Sweet Love*:
I know that every female wanted 2 make LOVE to this song. I remember wen...o excuse me...was gettin a little nostalgic there!

*3 Piece-Ooh Aah*:
Now they may not be very well known...but play the song and I'm sure you'll see why I chose this as one of the songs

*PRETTY WILLIE- Lay Your Body Down*:
Notice I put his name in all caps because, I like, love this song. And it doesn't hurt one bit that he is super sexy!!!!! Some may not agree with me 4 this song...but mah lil cousin got this on her iPod, so I may be goin in the right direction {or now that I think about it...maybe not}

*Ashanti- Rescue Me*:
Some may not remember this song, but this girl wasn't playing. The song is 7 1/2 minutes long...Do I really need 2 say why???

O goodness...I jus got super excited wen I realized I was about 2 write this song...

*Az Yet- Last Night*:
Everybody and they momma's remember this song! CLASSIC!!!!!

*Beyonce- Speechless*:
This song??? I've always wanted 2 to this song...hasn't happened yet, but I still got time...She was trying to do an Ashanti with this song being 6 minutes...Ashanti got her beat tho...

*Boyz II Men: 50 Candles/ I Do*:
A lot of ppl haven't even heard 50 candles...but it's so sensual. And some may say what the "h" am I thinking putting "I Do" as a song 2 make love 2??? Well, I know any girl would, without a 2nd thot, race u 2 the bed if u played this song 4 her. Shoot, if not...I would, but thas kinda beside the point. Maybe I jus really like this song...lol!

*Ginuwine- So Anxious*:
Okay...Do I really need 2 explain here???? I couldn't even if I tried...I jus keep goin back 2 that video...good LORD!!!

*Ideal- Creep Inn*

*Jamie Foxx- Do What It Do*:
Haven't heard it? Please do...

*Lloyd- Take It Low/ Feel So Right/ Cadillac Love*:
He got a few songs that are jus right 4 the occasion...appreciate him 4 that!

OKAY!!!! HERE WE GO!!!!!!!

*Maxwell- This Woman's Work*:
Love & Basketball...nothing more 2 say!!!!

*Silk- Let's Make Love*

*TLC- Red Light Special*:
yea...those mah girls...they kno how 2 make a man work 4 wat they want!!! remember the lyrics and you'll kno wat I mean...lol!

*Tyrese- Signs of Lovemaking*

*Usher- Do It To Me/ Can You Handle It?*:
This dude?!?! Love him 4 those songs

*Yung Joc ft. Marques Houston- First Time*:
I think I jus wanted 2 put this song on the cd, but I like it, so I'll keep with it

Thas all I have...I didn't put all on there cuz I didn't like every single one of them...those are mah favz so...let's see what u think. Wat i miss????

MISS PETITE

BACK 2 DA BOOTH!!!

I guess you could say that Blogger is officially pissing me off right now so i guess I'll write a blog!

Anywho....

I'm goin back 2 the studio 2day {I guess 4 those of u who didn't kno...I sing and write}. I'm super excited. I haven't been in over a month due 2 crazy drama that happens in life. But, I definitely don't wanna be a singer, but if thas wat God has in the cards 4 me then who am I 2 stop him {lol}. I jus wanna write. Stay behind the scenes and let others bring mah words 2 life. But, I gotta start somewhere and since folks are so anxious 2 get me 2 do a cd, thas wat I'll do! Here's a song I wrote. I wrote it in like 30 minutes as soon as I heard the music It's copy written so, don't copy me! LOL!

Currently Untitled:
What you wanna do baby/ jus lemme kno/ we ain't gotta rush we can take it nice and slow/ wateva you wanna do/ cuz u kno I aim 2 please/ jus tell me how u like it/ got some tricks up mah sleeve/ jus let the music play/ put the cell on vibrate/ cuz it's me and you/ wateva you wanna do

bridge: you kno how I like it so baby take it slow/ Oh/ we got all night/ so baby/ you gotta take it slow

chorus: slow it down/ slow it down/ slow it down

~~Okay...so jus a snippet since you can't really hear the rhythm or melody anyway lol! {Thas mah pen name by the by: ~Melodee~} Pretti soon I'll let you hear some of it. Once it's recorded of course! As far as the title goes...I'm Thinkin maybe "Slow" or "Slow It Down"...something pretti obvious...lol! So peace and luv!

Do something creative 2day! LOL!

MISS PETITE

DarN FaShiON fAds

i jus had a really random thot lookin @ a commercia 4 the army. does anybody remember the camouflage fashion fad??? oh goodness...it had 2 be the worst! i neva caught on 2 that and i was so glad wen it was over. i mean who seriously sat down and said i think that usin army fatigue will be the best fashion style that ever existed. well...i guess the same person who said hummers would be good suv's. and i still dont see why folks bought into that mess! any who...that was my random thot 4 the day. and i hope that mess neva comes bac.

Choices, choices, choices

So...I guess that I've finally decided 2 let go of all this partying crap...the drinking, the clubs, the BOYZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!! Goodness, Lord knows how hard thas gonna be! I was in church the other day and I realized how hypocritical I've been. But, it didn't start there. It started Thursday wen I went out wit one of mah bestest (Bee). We were at Red Lobster (That food was sooooo good and the WAITER???? He was amazing...lol).

But, ne who...she was talking about all the ppl in her life who suddenly decided they wanted to become saved and lived right. She said they were all fake. And I'm not one 2 judge-tho I could see where she was coming from--but who's 2 say if they didn't really make the change in their hearts to be different. And I couldn't say all of this 2 her because I realized how many times I came 2 her saying that I was gonna be different and the very next day I was in the club getting drunk. I mean...yea...I like 2 have fun...but at wat cost???? Eternal Damnation (sorry 2 those who don't believe in it...but I do with mah whole heart!!!!)

I mean...thing is...I know how blessed I was wen I was living right. Now that I'm doing the whole "worldly" thing...everything is kinda crashing down around me!!!! I'm not feeling it and I kno wat I need 2 do. I gotta change. And I made the decision on Sunday...so I'm changing. Not trying...cuz:

"If someone really wants 2 change...there is not TRY--you jus change. If there is no change, then obviously that person doesn't want 2 change. Plain and simple."

Thas from me!!!! LOL

But on 2 a lighter note:
~~I saw Tropic Thunder on Thursday and House Bunny on Friday!! Those movies are frikkin hilarious. I'm glad ppl are finally coming out wit comedies that actually make u laugh. LOL! I loved them and if u go see them. I'm sure u will 2. Call me their PR Agents. I'm telling u 2 go see it. It's only 5 dollars Monday-Thursday (look now I'm promoting Star Theatres). I'm good at this...I should so do this for a living!!!!

CoMPliCaTEd lOvE...

I'm in love with a guy who I prolly shouldn't be...we'll call him Illinois (guess now u kno mah "deeper infatuation with Chicago). Thing is...he's a liar and a cheater. That should be enough 2 leave him alone, right? Yea...I wish. I've only known him since the end of January and we jus got 2gether back in May. Needless 2 say, we're not 2gether anymore. But, I kinda feel as if we will be 2gether soon. I mean jus because someone cheats doesn't mean their not in love. I kno this (I use 2 be this looooong time ago). I guess thas why I keep giving chances. Because I kno wen it was me {with BP} that I wanted another chance. {BP neva gave me anotha chance and I kno how I felt...I wanted the chance 2 prove 2 him that I loved him regardless of mah cheating...but I wasn't allowed that.}

But, thas a lil beside the point. so...

Back 2 mah present...I love him and I kno that if he could take back wat he did 2 me...he would. I kno how terrible he feels. He has never been this honest and out in the open about how he feels about me {finally} and lettin ppl kno that his heart is taken. I mean...it's really sad that it takes me leav'n him 2 realize wat he had. I mean but I guess thas a nigga 4 u and they neva realize wat they have wen it's right in front of them.

I guess mah dilemma is that I wanna be back with him...but I don't wanna be back in this spot...feeling hurt and betrayed the millionth time around. I wanna believe he's changed like he said, but I need proof. More than jus lettin it be known on MySpace {but it doesn't hurt}. I jus need 2 kno it's only me and fa real this time. {if there is a next time}.

I love him...I jus don't trust him...and thas a big problem 4 me there. WTD????

~MISS PETITE~

I'm new 2 this...again!!!

I guess I'm starting this blogging thing again. Gave it a rest 4 a while...but I'll get back with it. So let's get 2 kno me...shall we???

I currently live in Michigan which I hate with the utmost passion. But, it's cool because soon enough I'll be living in Chicago--on mah own--going to school there. Yessir (congratulate me...lol) I'll be going 2 columbia college. I love it...and I haven't even started yet. But, I guess mah infatuation with Chicago goes a lil deeper than jus the school. But, I guess u'll learn more about that as time goes on. I'm a complicated soul...lol. I'm jus bein honest. But I've grown and matured a whole lot. I kno u hear that a lot...I mean a WHOLE LOT! But, in all honesty...I have. And I'm proud of me!!!! I'm letting go of a lot instead of tryna hold on 2 things that aren't meant 2 be. I'm me...and trust me...u'll love me!!! If not...o well :) jok!!!

~MISS PETITE~