Ch-ch-ch-ch-changez!!!!

Man...sometimes change can be so f'n hard. It can be really good, but it's soooooo hard! I don't want any of mah frenz 2 leave me! But, thas life & we're gonna go our separate ways eventually. It's jus...u don't think that far ahead wen ur frenz. Ur like, "oh she's always gonna be around." And then, one day it finally hits u that as we get older we're gonna do different things. And that really makes me sad. Life is crazy. And as u gain one thing--for instance...I've gained love {real love}--u lose another...a really good fren. And even tho u kno u'll always be frenz...it sucks cuz they won't be there wen u jus wanna go visit them @ work {or sumthin like that} wen u jus feel like it. It's really sad 2 think on. And sumtimes u jus wanna be in denial, but u gotta come 2 the realization that things ARE gonna change whether u want them 2 or not. So, I jus hop on board & give "big ups" 2 mah girls! I love them whether we talk everyday or once every 2 months. They're are the best. And I kno that once I MAKE IT BIG IN THE INDUSTRY they'll have no choice but 2 be around. LMBO! Cuz, wifey gone be assistant...duh! lol! And Bee, Dee, Si, Lama & Si...I don't kno...haven't thot that far in advance. LOL! But, jus kno that ya'll gone be wit me every step of the way! LOL! I love ya'll...KNO THIS!!!

BeEN gOnE 4 A mINutE...

Where hav i been??? Nowhere...jus not on blogger. Besides...like a re re i 4got my e-mail cuz i hadn't been on here in so long and it kinda jus popped n2 my head. So.....here i iz!! Lol...

But wat i hav been dealin wit is whiny ex's--i'm so not goin there rite now...i'm not even tryna be cool wit that dude NO MORE!!! Get ova it...i dnt want u nemore...deal wit it. So, ur not my world nemore?? U had me, lost me, ur bad. But newayz...i'm ova that.

Next!!!

4 some reason me & my love jus cant catch a break on this relationship thing. We're like so in love but we keep gettin hit 4rm every angle. It's so not fair...we already hav the whole distance thing & on top of that we got all this bs!!! I mean, regardless i'ma be his cuz I AM his...but it's like "come on!!" i'll get ova it...i'm jus havin a moment...

But, in spite of all that I'm actually really happy!! I mean, I'm in love, gettin a promotion @ work {thinkin of gettin a holiday job tho...lol}, lovin my frenz, family is, well...family :-). I'm more than good.

So...thas the update...i'll be blogging more often again...i kinda missed it. PLUS...I gotta sidekick {4rm the ex...about the only good thing I got 4rm him...ha ha!}.

*kisses :-p*

Close That Chapter...

Close that book!!! {who kno's wat thas from??? lol}

So, I've finally got the closure that I've been dying 2 get. I must give a special thanks to Eb 4 puttin' me on 2 that special song by Mrs. Carter {funny how everyone is calling her that now, like her marry'n him is wat makes her...lol}. Anywho...I listened 2 that song and realized how NOT over the way mah ex hurt me. I listened 2 it--literally--a thousand and one times {well, maybe not literally...but u get mah point}. And I cried. 4 like the 1st time since we ended...I confronted mah feelings. Wen we ended {4 good} I jus said "f" it and I wanted 2 move on; play the role...be the bad girl. But, things never go as planned. I ended up falling in love. And yes, he's done TONS of stupid things, but now that he's really trying, I'm letting mah unresolved issues wit mah ex hurt our chances of actually working out.

So, with that said, I finally talked 2 him. Heard his story, which I wish he woulda jus said from the start. It's so funny, tho. I've always jus talked about how dumb boys are and they jus don't care who they hurt...but I've learned 2day {and as wifey says} "there's always a story." I mean there's always a reason why they are as stupid as they are {lmbo}. It's jus truth. But, now that I kno, it jus makes it easier 4 me 2 accept. And now I can fully move on and not hold unfair, bitter feelings towards mah love!

I'm happy. I feel really good! Cuz I've finally...

Closed that chapter...Closed that book!!!

the classics...

i've always loved movies but now i think im fallin in love wit the oldies. and no i dont mean the 80's or even the 70's...the real classics...they're so good. i love the way they talk lol...

"THE" Ex

Quick Snippet:
*I love mah wifey: {i gotta be her rock now since I'm at a point that she's not...and I don't mind that at all cuz she's been mine more than I can count}
*I love mah Bee: {I can't imagine life without her...she's mah heart}
*I love all mah frenz: {God seriously gave me the best}

Anywho...on 2 "THE" Ex...

It's important 2 kno that there is always that one person in ur life that will be "THE" ex...aside from every other former bf/gf that u've had, there will always only be one that, in any convo that u have wit anyone, they kno exactly who ur talkin about wen u say my ex...lmbo!

Well as far as "THE" ex...he's movin back to the D...and yes, of course, he's tryna get back in. I mean, why?!? Seriously. I did everything 4 this boy, LITERALLY took care of him and he jus did me soooooo wrong {as is the story of a nigga...lol}. But, now he's text'n me and calling me allll the time. I mean...that use 2 be me {wen we weren't 2gether}...and now it's flipped 2 him. And it's so not normal 4 me. I mean, it's not like he outright said, "Cristal, I want u back." But, of course he wouldn't. I jus kno him...I kno him. And I kno he's tryna get back.

I made a mistake of tellin him of a problem that me and mah love were having--well, not a mistake...i jus thot we were frenz, ya kno--and he basically told me 2 break up wit him; that i should "Do me..." lol...goodness, these boyz! Wat is it wit them. Why can I be a fren 2 him, but he can't be the same 2 me. I've been there, where I was the ex tryna give him advice about his OTHER GIRLS and tryin not 2 be jealous at the same time...but I'm not there anymore and I wish he could understand that I love mah love...and I don't want him back...

I still love him, 4 sure. but I'm no longer in love with him...of course he'll try 2 act as if he doesn't want me back, but like I said, thas a nigga 4 u...we'll see how this plays out!

~MISS Petite~

BOY STOP?!?!

I'm sorry but i jus have to post this convo between me and this boy on facebook. I don't get boys...wat is really wrong wit them. I swear they mental. I haven't talked 2 this boy in TWO YEARS and this is wat he come at me wit:

Dumb Nigga:

September 29 at 6:04pm

How have u been?

Cristal Nicole:

September 29 at 7:21pm

wow...i been good...u?

Dumb Nigga:

September 29 at 10:53pm

Im doing fine. Surprised bout sumthin?

Cristal Nicole:

September 29 at 11:38pm

lol...wateva...u kno wat im surprised about...wat made u write me??

Dumb Nigga:

September 30 at 1:55am

It was weird but i was thinkin bout u

Cristal Nicole:

September 30 at 7:43am

aww u was thinkin about me lol...why is that weird? lol so wat were u thinkin about

Dumb Nigga:

September 30 at 2:54pm

Jus wondering what u had been up to. Was wondering y we couldnt get along when i no i liked u. Also was wonderin how the celibate life was. All that!

Cristal Nicole

September 30 at 6:56pm

lol...all that huh...i mean i been good. livin life as best i can and...i couldn't tell u why we aint get along i guess we were jus too alike...and as far as the celibacy thing...well i have a boyfren so wateva u take from that

Dumb Nigga:

Today at 5:35am

Its time to cheat bcuz i wanna take u out

Cristal Nicole

Today at 7:56am

o wow {dumb nigga...lol}...i dont kno about that...im definitely not a cheater...and why do i have 2 cheat jus 4 u 2 take me out

I mean, seriously....wat be goin thru these dudes heads?!?! I need 2 kno now. 2 years and I dropped u..and now all of a sudden u want me 2 drop mah boo 4 u....lets use common sense now...really!!!!

Unofficial Girl...

There was a lot of talk about this song wit mah girls this weekend {lmbo!!! we had 2 much fun}...but everybody clearly kno's Cassie's talkin about Diddy! Duh...I like the song tho. And I listened 2 the words...and I totally understand where the girl is comin from. I was there wit and ex of mine...but now I have a guy who wants 2 be wit me and I'm put'n him on hold. I mean I kno why, but then I realize that there are girls out there that all they want is the "title". And I can have that wen I want and I'm hold'n it off. I guess it's kinda confusing. I can tell him I wanna be 2gether again and that will be that...I jus wanna be sure I'm ready. Well..that he's ready, ya kno. No matter how much he says he wants 2 be with me...I need 2 kno he really wants it this time...i dunno...I'm jus conFWused!!!

Trust U????

Why are boys so unbelievably stupid??? I mean seriously. I honestly don't believe that I'm putting all guys in a category because all boys ARE, in fact, stupid. Like they jus didn't get that piece in their brain that females get. What the "h" are u missing??? It's so retarded. Mah love went and did the most retarded thing any guy could do {well, not the most retarded...but I'm pissed}. And his explanation was that he wanted 2 kno that I can trust him if anything else came up further down the line. ARE U INSANE???? Seriously...

It's like, after all that he's done 2 me, I shouldn't trust him. But, I let all that bull go and I do trust him. If ur gonna be wit somebody then u can't keep holding on 2 that mess, so I'm not anymore. And, if anything, I should be the one testing him 2 see if I can trust him...but I didn't. And he has the f'n audacity 2 do something like that!!! It's like...don't u kno that I'm yours...all mah f'n myspace statuses tell the world {FReE OwNz}. Don't test me...I'm get'n enough of that from my old ex who's slowly but surely tryna work his way back in {another story...lol} I'll get over it...I kno I will. I'm jus pissed. I was hurt, but wifey says I shouldn't be.

Speak'n of wifey. It's so unbelievably unfair. Like I said, boys are stupid and then u expect us 2 trust u???? I mean, come on now...

I jus came up wit this theory 2day. me and wifey were talkin and I told her:

"It seems the more a guy becomes threatened of losing you, the more dumb he gets."

And it couldn't be more true. I jus wish guys knew that tell'n the truth gets u farther than anything! Realize that and stop be'n so stupid!!! Goodness!!!

~MISS Petite~

SATC!!!!!

So Sex & The City comes out next week on video! But, u kno since I uh...work at Blockbuster--i gets it pre-street! So there will be an SATC Party this weekend. Be there or...well, wateva! LOL!

Ride or Die???

This is a statement thas been thrown around a lot. But, most chicks don't even kno wat that means.

Ride-or-die chick:
wifey material...someone who has ur back thru the thick and the thin. She was there 4 u from jump {whether u flat broke or got bread 4 days}. The material things don't matter 2 her. She don't mind fittin the bill wen need be cuz she'll do anything 4 u. She doesn't EXPECT the same from u, because she KNO'S that u would be willing 2 do the same 4 her any day. All that she asks from u in return is that u love her and HER ONLY! Thas it...thas a ride-or-die chick!!!

I can say 4 a fact that--and believe that I'm not tryna toot mah own horn {well maybe a lil...lol}--I am definitely a ride-or-die chick. I've got that in me.

And I kno that u've been on this lil roller coaster ride wit me goin back and forth over the guy I love, but then...thas love. Ups and downs. And yes, he's done wrong in the past {but no one's an angel and no one is completely good ALL the time}. And believe that I am not making excuses 4 wat he's done...he'll get his soon {I love that "love revenge" lol...it's all good}, but I'm simply saying that regardless, we'll make it work.

Because wen love is real, and u want it 2 work, u'll make it work. U gotta find something in u 2 stick wit it. If u can't find it, then it's obviously not meant 2 be, so leave it be. But, wen u find that thing. Whether it be the smallest reason or a giant, make it work because at least u can say u gave it ur all. And, if in fact it doesn't work after u gave ur all...well...and I hate 2 be repetitive...u gave ur all!

And thas exactly wat I plan 2 do. Cuz I love him and he loves me 2. Some may read this {mainly frenz...Bee...lol} and think I'm crazy and I'll have 2 agree wit u! Yea...I am crazy. Cuz love is neva simple...neva normal. There are always some problems. Whether ur willing 2 go thru it or not is on u. And I can say that I've had mah share of tiffs with love in the past, but i'm jus not willng 2 let go of it yet. So, I'm holding on! Cuz, regardless of the tears, the hurt, the pain, the anger...u have 2 realize that with it comes happiness, smiles, laughter...LOVE! And u can neva have one without the other.

So, I'll take the good and the bad...cuz...well...

I'm a ride or die...no question needed!!!

Bad Girl Gone Good, Gone...

Bad once again!!! No explanation needed! Jus kno it's time 4 these dudes 2 get a dose of their own medicine. Sometimes I hate the fact I put aside mah bad girl ways 4 love. All I got was hurt. But, no more...maybe I'm just a....

BAD GIRL!!!

FITS OF A SLEEPLESS NIGHT...

i wonder how many sleepless nights i've had in my lifetime all because of love. not that im blaming love 4 who i fell 4, jus simply sayin. it seems i've been here more than i should hav. and i wish there was a way 2 avoid this. but, as i kno, and anyone else who's ever suffered from heart break, i kno i must go thru this.

a thousand thots race thru my head and i wonder is this my punishment 4 falling in love. i wonder, is this the benefit. i swear i hear a million times over that he's not worth my tears, it's his loss, it'll get better and so forth. and trust me that i kno all these things already but that doesn't mean my tears will stop fallin and it doesn't mean i'll accept it better because he didn't deserve me {I mean, who does, really??}, and it surely doesn't make the time pass any faster knowin that it will get better. and trust me wen i say im no where near pessimistic. i mean u would think that after all the heart ache i've experienced that i would throw my hands up, say f it and be bitter as eva. but im not...im very optimistic but more so realistic! life does a number on u. changes u. grows u up....changes u. i dunno. i guess this is jus...fits of a sleepless night!!!

I HATE HIM!!!!

He jus ruined mah whole day...wish I couldn't care, but I do and I'm crying typing on mah laptop in the frikkin library. I HATE HIM!!!!

Mah Response 2 OneTen's post :-)

One Ten's recent post piqued mah interest a whole lot. Not 4 any particular reason other than the fact that he was listing some Classic songs {he so wonderfully call's PD's...wanna kno wat it is...go look @ his page}. But, he missed some...and since, a few years back, I made mah own cd'z for this exact purpose...I was compelled 2 add 2 wat he already has! Hope he doesn't mind

::little girly face::

So, here goes.... {in no particular order of course}
*112- Sweet Love*:
I know that every female wanted 2 make LOVE to this song. I remember wen...o excuse me...was gettin a little nostalgic there!

*3 Piece-Ooh Aah*:
Now they may not be very well known...but play the song and I'm sure you'll see why I chose this as one of the songs

*PRETTY WILLIE- Lay Your Body Down*:
Notice I put his name in all caps because, I like, love this song. And it doesn't hurt one bit that he is super sexy!!!!! Some may not agree with me 4 this song...but mah lil cousin got this on her iPod, so I may be goin in the right direction {or now that I think about it...maybe not}

*Ashanti- Rescue Me*:
Some may not remember this song, but this girl wasn't playing. The song is 7 1/2 minutes long...Do I really need 2 say why???

O goodness...I jus got super excited wen I realized I was about 2 write this song...

*Az Yet- Last Night*:
Everybody and they momma's remember this song! CLASSIC!!!!!

*Beyonce- Speechless*:
This song??? I've always wanted 2 to this song...hasn't happened yet, but I still got time...She was trying to do an Ashanti with this song being 6 minutes...Ashanti got her beat tho...

*Boyz II Men: 50 Candles/ I Do*:
A lot of ppl haven't even heard 50 candles...but it's so sensual. And some may say what the "h" am I thinking putting "I Do" as a song 2 make love 2??? Well, I know any girl would, without a 2nd thot, race u 2 the bed if u played this song 4 her. Shoot, if not...I would, but thas kinda beside the point. Maybe I jus really like this song...lol!

*Ginuwine- So Anxious*:
Okay...Do I really need 2 explain here???? I couldn't even if I tried...I jus keep goin back 2 that video...good LORD!!!

*Ideal- Creep Inn*

*Jamie Foxx- Do What It Do*:
Haven't heard it? Please do...

*Lloyd- Take It Low/ Feel So Right/ Cadillac Love*:
He got a few songs that are jus right 4 the occasion...appreciate him 4 that!

OKAY!!!! HERE WE GO!!!!!!!

*Maxwell- This Woman's Work*:
Love & Basketball...nothing more 2 say!!!!

*Silk- Let's Make Love*

*TLC- Red Light Special*:
yea...those mah girls...they kno how 2 make a man work 4 wat they want!!! remember the lyrics and you'll kno wat I mean...lol!

*Tyrese- Signs of Lovemaking*

*Usher- Do It To Me/ Can You Handle It?*:
This dude?!?! Love him 4 those songs

*Yung Joc ft. Marques Houston- First Time*:
I think I jus wanted 2 put this song on the cd, but I like it, so I'll keep with it

Thas all I have...I didn't put all on there cuz I didn't like every single one of them...those are mah favz so...let's see what u think. Wat i miss????

MISS PETITE

BACK 2 DA BOOTH!!!

I guess you could say that Blogger is officially pissing me off right now so i guess I'll write a blog!

Anywho....

I'm goin back 2 the studio 2day {I guess 4 those of u who didn't kno...I sing and write}. I'm super excited. I haven't been in over a month due 2 crazy drama that happens in life. But, I definitely don't wanna be a singer, but if thas wat God has in the cards 4 me then who am I 2 stop him {lol}. I jus wanna write. Stay behind the scenes and let others bring mah words 2 life. But, I gotta start somewhere and since folks are so anxious 2 get me 2 do a cd, thas wat I'll do! Here's a song I wrote. I wrote it in like 30 minutes as soon as I heard the music It's copy written so, don't copy me! LOL!

Currently Untitled:
What you wanna do baby/ jus lemme kno/ we ain't gotta rush we can take it nice and slow/ wateva you wanna do/ cuz u kno I aim 2 please/ jus tell me how u like it/ got some tricks up mah sleeve/ jus let the music play/ put the cell on vibrate/ cuz it's me and you/ wateva you wanna do

bridge: you kno how I like it so baby take it slow/ Oh/ we got all night/ so baby/ you gotta take it slow

chorus: slow it down/ slow it down/ slow it down

~~Okay...so jus a snippet since you can't really hear the rhythm or melody anyway lol! {Thas mah pen name by the by: ~Melodee~} Pretti soon I'll let you hear some of it. Once it's recorded of course! As far as the title goes...I'm Thinkin maybe "Slow" or "Slow It Down"...something pretti obvious...lol! So peace and luv!

Do something creative 2day! LOL!

MISS PETITE

DarN FaShiON fAds

i jus had a really random thot lookin @ a commercia 4 the army. does anybody remember the camouflage fashion fad??? oh goodness...it had 2 be the worst! i neva caught on 2 that and i was so glad wen it was over. i mean who seriously sat down and said i think that usin army fatigue will be the best fashion style that ever existed. well...i guess the same person who said hummers would be good suv's. and i still dont see why folks bought into that mess! any who...that was my random thot 4 the day. and i hope that mess neva comes bac.

Choices, choices, choices

So...I guess that I've finally decided 2 let go of all this partying crap...the drinking, the clubs, the BOYZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!! Goodness, Lord knows how hard thas gonna be! I was in church the other day and I realized how hypocritical I've been. But, it didn't start there. It started Thursday wen I went out wit one of mah bestest (Bee). We were at Red Lobster (That food was sooooo good and the WAITER???? He was amazing...lol).

But, ne who...she was talking about all the ppl in her life who suddenly decided they wanted to become saved and lived right. She said they were all fake. And I'm not one 2 judge-tho I could see where she was coming from--but who's 2 say if they didn't really make the change in their hearts to be different. And I couldn't say all of this 2 her because I realized how many times I came 2 her saying that I was gonna be different and the very next day I was in the club getting drunk. I mean...yea...I like 2 have fun...but at wat cost???? Eternal Damnation (sorry 2 those who don't believe in it...but I do with mah whole heart!!!!)

I mean...thing is...I know how blessed I was wen I was living right. Now that I'm doing the whole "worldly" thing...everything is kinda crashing down around me!!!! I'm not feeling it and I kno wat I need 2 do. I gotta change. And I made the decision on Sunday...so I'm changing. Not trying...cuz:

"If someone really wants 2 change...there is not TRY--you jus change. If there is no change, then obviously that person doesn't want 2 change. Plain and simple."

Thas from me!!!! LOL

But on 2 a lighter note:
~~I saw Tropic Thunder on Thursday and House Bunny on Friday!! Those movies are frikkin hilarious. I'm glad ppl are finally coming out wit comedies that actually make u laugh. LOL! I loved them and if u go see them. I'm sure u will 2. Call me their PR Agents. I'm telling u 2 go see it. It's only 5 dollars Monday-Thursday (look now I'm promoting Star Theatres). I'm good at this...I should so do this for a living!!!!

CoMPliCaTEd lOvE...

I'm in love with a guy who I prolly shouldn't be...we'll call him Illinois (guess now u kno mah "deeper infatuation with Chicago). Thing is...he's a liar and a cheater. That should be enough 2 leave him alone, right? Yea...I wish. I've only known him since the end of January and we jus got 2gether back in May. Needless 2 say, we're not 2gether anymore. But, I kinda feel as if we will be 2gether soon. I mean jus because someone cheats doesn't mean their not in love. I kno this (I use 2 be this looooong time ago). I guess thas why I keep giving chances. Because I kno wen it was me {with BP} that I wanted another chance. {BP neva gave me anotha chance and I kno how I felt...I wanted the chance 2 prove 2 him that I loved him regardless of mah cheating...but I wasn't allowed that.}

But, thas a lil beside the point. so...

Back 2 mah present...I love him and I kno that if he could take back wat he did 2 me...he would. I kno how terrible he feels. He has never been this honest and out in the open about how he feels about me {finally} and lettin ppl kno that his heart is taken. I mean...it's really sad that it takes me leav'n him 2 realize wat he had. I mean but I guess thas a nigga 4 u and they neva realize wat they have wen it's right in front of them.

I guess mah dilemma is that I wanna be back with him...but I don't wanna be back in this spot...feeling hurt and betrayed the millionth time around. I wanna believe he's changed like he said, but I need proof. More than jus lettin it be known on MySpace {but it doesn't hurt}. I jus need 2 kno it's only me and fa real this time. {if there is a next time}.

I love him...I jus don't trust him...and thas a big problem 4 me there. WTD????

~MISS PETITE~

I'm new 2 this...again!!!

I guess I'm starting this blogging thing again. Gave it a rest 4 a while...but I'll get back with it. So let's get 2 kno me...shall we???

I currently live in Michigan which I hate with the utmost passion. But, it's cool because soon enough I'll be living in Chicago--on mah own--going to school there. Yessir (congratulate me...lol) I'll be going 2 columbia college. I love it...and I haven't even started yet. But, I guess mah infatuation with Chicago goes a lil deeper than jus the school. But, I guess u'll learn more about that as time goes on. I'm a complicated soul...lol. I'm jus bein honest. But I've grown and matured a whole lot. I kno u hear that a lot...I mean a WHOLE LOT! But, in all honesty...I have. And I'm proud of me!!!! I'm letting go of a lot instead of tryna hold on 2 things that aren't meant 2 be. I'm me...and trust me...u'll love me!!! If not...o well :) jok!!!

~MISS PETITE~