I'm in love with a guy who I prolly shouldn't be...we'll call him Illinois (guess now u kno mah "deeper infatuation with Chicago). Thing is...he's a liar and a cheater. That should be enough 2 leave him alone, right? Yea...I wish. I've only known him since the end of January and we jus got 2gether back in May. Needless 2 say, we're not 2gether anymore. But, I kinda feel as if we will be 2gether soon. I mean jus because someone cheats doesn't mean their not in love. I kno this (I use 2 be this looooong time ago). I guess thas why I keep giving chances. Because I kno wen it was me {with BP} that I wanted another chance. {BP neva gave me anotha chance and I kno how I felt...I wanted the chance 2 prove 2 him that I loved him regardless of mah cheating...but I wasn't allowed that.}
But, thas a lil beside the point. so...
Back 2 mah present...I love him and I kno that if he could take back wat he did 2 me...he would. I kno how terrible he feels. He has never been this honest and out in the open about how he feels about me {finally} and lettin ppl kno that his heart is taken. I mean...it's really sad that it takes me leav'n him 2 realize wat he had. I mean but I guess thas a nigga 4 u and they neva realize wat they have wen it's right in front of them.
I guess mah dilemma is that I wanna be back with him...but I don't wanna be back in this spot...feeling hurt and betrayed the millionth time around. I wanna believe he's changed like he said, but I need proof. More than jus lettin it be known on MySpace {but it doesn't hurt}. I jus need 2 kno it's only me and fa real this time. {if there is a next time}.
I love him...I jus don't trust him...and thas a big problem 4 me there. WTD????
~MISS PETITE~
Au Naturale
10 years ago
4 comments:
Now this is a dilemma a lot of people are faced w/ on an every day basis. Well, I cheated before (only once though -- don't judge LOL) and I would take it back if I could. I still feel like the girl I cheated on was 'the one' but even now I can't change that because she WON'T give me another chance....so I feel ol' dude's pain. But at the same time, you can't repeat the same mistake over and over. You know the saying girl....'Fool me once, shame on me. Fool me twice...'
So, just be conscience of that and if you're not getting what you want/need/deserve, then you have to do you. And as long as you're doing right by him, there's no reason you should settle for anything but the best.
And seeing that you don't trust him, I don't want to sound pessimistic, but I don't think you guys will work out. Trust is a foundation in a relationship...w/o it, the relationship will eventually falter.
LOL, look at me sounding like a therapist or counselor. LOL. But you showed me love and I gotta re-pay you. I'm going to add you to the blogroll and will be your blogging, relationship counselor. Cool? Cool. LOL.
yeah.... just keep your mouth shut about me and Eric lol
I never cheated on anyone but I've been cheated on twice. Each time i cut the ties and told them to kick rocks. I never stuck around to see how they really felt because for me, the actions spoke louder than words.
you definitely cant allow yourself to be with someone you dont trust... it will only cause more problems... I have been there... and then you end up overanalyzing everything and then he gets tired of you accusing him when he might not be.... its a lose lose situation...
so either you have to forgive and forget and allow him to have a clean slate... or move on...
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