Jus Gotta Make It...

So I dnt think I've eva wanted anything more than 2 make it as a writer. After all mah yrz tryna escape it & do sum'n different, I finally embraced it & took it as "this is wat God has 4 me 2 do..." I mean I'm good @ it...He's definitely blessed me wen it cumz 2 that facet of mah life...but it jus seems so hard!

I honestly haven't tha faintest as where 2 start. I feel so helpless wen it cumz 2 that. U kno most ppl got ppl in tha industry. Or ppl who kno ppl who kno ppl....who kno ppl. I ain't even 1 of those. Sad I kno...but I was browsing tha web, giving mah search engine a little excercise and this 1 guy {rly can't remember his name, but I guess he's a good source} he sed pretti much u jus gotta get out there & do it. And as much stagefright as I have wen it cumz 2 letting ppl n2 mah most vulnerable place--mah writing--I gotta do it, I gotta get over it so mah songz can be heard.

Tha reason y I haven't dun anything yet is bcuz i'm so f'n afraid of failure & I kno I shud'n be cuz failure shud'n evn be an option but also it was prophesied ova me that God wanted 2 use mah voice! And 4 most that wud hav given them tha runnin start 2 do wat they wanted cuz it jus frightened me more. I'll get ova it...I gotta l8 start...but betta l8 than neva...I'm only 22 as of tha present lol!

I guess tha only thing standing between me & mah blessing was...well...me! Isn't that most often tha case?

**sighs**

Well...I guess 2moro starts officially tha day ya girl gets about herz! Finally is all I can say...I'm sooooo relieved!!

~*~Mrs. Amillie~*~