Lol...there is not part 2, but I jus wanted 2 say that cuz of the obvious lol. But anyhoo...I decided. And I decided that I want him in mah life. I jus can't be without him. And I kno it sounds crazy for someone so young and all that he has put me thru. But, I guess that wen you kno...you kno. And if anyone has ANYTHING to say about it. Well...they can talk 2 themselves, cuz I ain't hearing it. Yes and I think needless 2 say, if he screws up again it WILL be it. And I mean that with tha utmost. And I think he understands that better than anyone. It didn't take long at all 4 him 2 change it around. I definitely notice it. And it's crazy cuz he's still where he is and I'm still here, but jus talkin 2 him, I can tell. But, all I can do is w8 and see. I think he gets it this time. Cuz there was a point wen I was definitely like, "No, I'm done." I guess thas wat scared him ish-less. And thas wen he went on that whole drinkin binge. And even after that, I was kinda like I don't really want this anymore. But, it came 2 me so clear one day. I think listening to a Keri Hilson song, "Where Did He Go?" In the song she talks about how she made a mistake in letting him go and she had to deal with that decision years later and now she's missing him. I didn't want that to be me. I can't let that be me. Cuz regardless of the bull. I kno wat I felt and I kno wat was real. I kno that our love was without a doubt, real! So, yea...I decided. And even tho we're not technically together, he's still mah heart. The very piece that completes me. I love him...more than that simple 3 worded phrase cud ever express. He is mah all.
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10 years ago